♥I always wanted you to be there when i fall, I always wanted you to see me through it all.

Haven't been blogging lately, cos i'm busy with my schoolwork, tests and everything else.
Many things happened these few week, both good and bad. All I have to say is that everythng happen for a reason. I just have to face the truth and the reality, is only a matter of time.
After so much things happened, I realise that actually no one is really there for me when I needed someone. People can tell me that they are always there for me and all that, but how is it true about it when I don't feel it? Yes i know you all are there for me, but somehow, not really because I really cannot feel it. Not even you.

Happy(?) New Year!

Something terrible happen today, on the 1st day of new year. And I was all alone, by myself.

Maybe you're better off without me. After all that has happened, false hopes are what i get. Everything was just a dream. I miss you but I'll definitely stop myself from thinking of you.
Life sucks to the fucking core.

♥You make me smile, you make my day, you make me know that I love you more each day

I hadn't been blogging much cos i'm damn busy these few days!!! But it was all worthwhile :)
Caught quite a lot of movies for this two weeks, Twilight, Yes Man, and Bedtime stories. I want to catch AUSTRALIA!!!! :(
Anyway, Yes Man was funny. Bedtime Stories was funny and a bit boring. Twilight was fun and nice, cos the company was great :D

And I bought a new CareBear Shirt from NUM!!! :D I was deciding on either the Raspberry Tart, Blueberry Muffin and the CareBear one. Carebear looks nice and I own the CareBear Love Bear too, so I bought it :) The shirt says: Believe In Love. Come to think of it, maybe Love is worth believing.

Now that 2008 is going to be over, I must say that 2008 was a fulfilling one yet tough one.
Old friends gone, new friends met. Heartbreaks? Happy times? Memories? Friendship problems, relationship and family problems. 2008 is a year that I'll not forget, the year that I faced with so many problems. A year that I'll always remember, proabably. But I'm looking forward to 2009!

I can't wait for 2009, and I hope this year would be a much more problem-free yet fun year. That I find true friends(?) probably, and friends that will be there for me. And of cos, having you for myself again :x

Resolutions for 2009?
To be less insecure, and more secure with the people around me
To be less guiliable and not to trust people around me too easily
To be less senstitive and not getting paranoid too easily
To change my fucking(oops) temper
To be with you again, I hope(?)
To be more independent
To be less vulgar!!!!
To study hard

That should be about it. I'm welcoming 2009 with warmth and excitement.
Ps. Pictures will be up soon too :)

♥Make me forget you so that I don't have to think of you every night

Took back N level results, and i got 7 points.
Well, i got the points that I wanted. But i expected more.
A2s for English and Math, B3s for Combined Humans, F&N and Sciences, B4 for Chinese
Chinese suck, yes i know. But i did my best, and i've been listening to chinese musics! :D

After all this while, I realise I'm still thinking of you

Pictures from Jacq's party, as promised.
All the pictures we took are here.
My sixteen birthday and chalet pictures will be up soon.

>Camwhored in Kbox with Hannah, Jacq and Althea


>Hannah and Grace




>Hannah, Jacq and me

>Jacq and Hannah

>Althea, Jacq, Grace and Hannah

>Jacq and Grace

More pictures tmrw!

♥Keep me in your memory, will you?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JACQUELINE :)

Celebrated Jacqueline's birthday yesterday at Kbox. Is been a long time since I've enter Kbox. Jacqueline's treat! :) Thanks, birthday girl! Crystal Jade for dinner after that, we all ate congee. Then headed to Hannah's place.

Attended Elize's bbq few days back. It was fun, the food was great. Bought her a sunflower :)
Just realise that I actually attended three Bbqs this week! Omgomgomomgomg

Oh! And I've finally got back my Ipod!!! I can finally listen to my music :)
I've been listening to chinese music nowadays, i wonder why.

Omgomgomgomg, N level results are coming out soon.

Anyway, pictures will be up soon.

♥If only i could tell you how much i feel for you. When can I ever see you again?

I went for Tiffany's party at her place. Happy birthday,Tiffany!
I caught up w Elize and Michelle :) Is been a long time since i've last talked to them! Elize used to be my really good friend in Sec one, and michelle used to be my GB squad leader who is always reminding me to come for GB. HAHA. Hope to catch up with you all more :)
There was a time when Elize, Theodore, Swenn, Michelle, Yuqi and me started talking about Primary school days! Hahaha, we had a great laugh about what happen in the Primary school in the past. So many flings happen in the school at that time, tsk tsk. (You know who you are!)
Went home pretty late, then something happen. Shan't elaborate.

Went for Johnson's chalet the next day, had fun. Just came home ytd in the morning. Elize was there, and we talked a lot :) As Elize was working till 11 plus, i went town w Mervyn and Swenn, so that I could meet Elize later to go tgt. Met Elize at 12 at Outram, and we talked a lot in the cab. We all slept at 5 plus but I couldn't sleep, cos it was damn cold. Thanks for the jacket :) Woke up for breakfast at 7 plus, and we went to eat. Then left at 10am.

Omg, my aunt confiscated my ipods and my camera!!!! Cos I stayed over at the chalet, which actually she didn't allow me to. I've no music, cos my speakers at my computer are spoilt too. That left me only w my psp, which only consist of one pathetic song ): I've been playing the song for quite a long time, and i can even remember the lyrics now! How pathetic is that. I almost couldn't survived ytd, due to the loss of music. I'm not exaggerating, but I seriously almost couldn't take it ):

Maybe i shouldn't rush things, and I should take one step at a time. I should let nature take its course, and to wait and see. I should take a rest from relationships and let my friendships and family to revolve around my life, and wait till........ my Mr Right comes :)

I think i've made up my mind to forget you, and to get on with life. Cos since this is the case, and this was what i found out, it really triggered my heart and my heart tells me to let it all go. Thanks for the one year, two months :) I appreciated it a lot.

♥I trusted you all along, and only you. But what did you do?

Follow yr heart.

All my posts will be on my private blog from today onwards, unless i want to blog here.