♥I put my faith in you, so much faith. And then you just threw it away

I don't know what to blog actually. But I just came back home, and I'm feeling really tired. And I feel.... (idk how to describe). Idk, but I don't feel like talking. And, I want to leave this place. Idk why am I typing this, but don't ask me why too.

Lots of tests next week, but I don't even have the mood to study. I really need a break.


If you ever want something so badly, let it go. If it comes back, then it is yours forever. If it doesn't then it was never yours to begin with - Blake Lively


I believe this phrase very much
Now, it all depends on fate

♥I cannot erase the things you've done, and all the ways you kept me hanging on

Love; It can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life. Yet why are we still taking the risk, or even plunging deeper into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow? - Taken from my private blog


I had nearly forgotten how it felt like to be, Joy

♥ Well, maybe I was never meant to be with you

Despite how bitterly I was crying, I can't believe that you just sit there, without even consoling or asking how I feel, after being insulted by someone.

You hurt me, real real real deep.

♥不能在一起也没关系, 至少你懂我的心

(Don't be shocked about the chinese words above)

Hadn't been feeling well lately, fever and headache.
Probably due to all the stress and problems happening around in my life now.
I can't sleep last night, was thinking alot. Woke up several times in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep. History is repeating itself again.

I really wonder how things became like this.
A love we once hold so dearly in our hearts,
A love that we have so much passionate in,
A love we once had so much sweet memories,
has gone just like that.
I really dont want all these to fade...

♥Where were you when I needed you? Why must you doubt me and believe others instead?

I hadn't been blogging lately due to all the school work and I'm feeling really lethargic. School was great, apart from problems that are inevitable. Everyday, I go school with a heavy heart, thinking what will happen in the days to come. Everyday, I've to face different truths and then I'll get disappointed.

I'm fucking tired of living, everyday I've to face with so much problems, it seems like there's a never ending to it. Friendship problems, relationship problems, and family problems..

You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I really want you to be there when I needed you the most

♥I always wanted you to be there when i fall, I always wanted you to see me through it all.

Haven't been blogging lately, cos i'm busy with my schoolwork, tests and everything else.
Many things happened these few week, both good and bad. All I have to say is that everythng happen for a reason. I just have to face the truth and the reality, is only a matter of time.
After so much things happened, I realise that actually no one is really there for me when I needed someone. People can tell me that they are always there for me and all that, but how is it true about it when I don't feel it? Yes i know you all are there for me, but somehow, not really because I really cannot feel it. Not even you.

Happy(?) New Year!

Something terrible happen today, on the 1st day of new year. And I was all alone, by myself.

Maybe you're better off without me. After all that has happened, false hopes are what i get. Everything was just a dream. I miss you but I'll definitely stop myself from thinking of you.
Life sucks to the fucking core.

♥You make me smile, you make my day, you make me know that I love you more each day

I hadn't been blogging much cos i'm damn busy these few days!!! But it was all worthwhile :)
Caught quite a lot of movies for this two weeks, Twilight, Yes Man, and Bedtime stories. I want to catch AUSTRALIA!!!! :(
Anyway, Yes Man was funny. Bedtime Stories was funny and a bit boring. Twilight was fun and nice, cos the company was great :D

And I bought a new CareBear Shirt from NUM!!! :D I was deciding on either the Raspberry Tart, Blueberry Muffin and the CareBear one. Carebear looks nice and I own the CareBear Love Bear too, so I bought it :) The shirt says: Believe In Love. Come to think of it, maybe Love is worth believing.

Now that 2008 is going to be over, I must say that 2008 was a fulfilling one yet tough one.
Old friends gone, new friends met. Heartbreaks? Happy times? Memories? Friendship problems, relationship and family problems. 2008 is a year that I'll not forget, the year that I faced with so many problems. A year that I'll always remember, proabably. But I'm looking forward to 2009!

I can't wait for 2009, and I hope this year would be a much more problem-free yet fun year. That I find true friends(?) probably, and friends that will be there for me. And of cos, having you for myself again :x

Resolutions for 2009?
To be less insecure, and more secure with the people around me
To be less guiliable and not to trust people around me too easily
To be less senstitive and not getting paranoid too easily
To change my fucking(oops) temper
To be with you again, I hope(?)
To be more independent
To be less vulgar!!!!
To study hard

That should be about it. I'm welcoming 2009 with warmth and excitement.
Ps. Pictures will be up soon too :)