Damn the whole world

I alrd lost the most important thing since I was in kindergarden.
I've lost parental love, love from my parents.
Everyone has perfect happy family with their parents who love them unconditionally
But wtf do I have
Fucking stupid unreasonable shit "reasons" and methods used on me by my aunt
For goodness sake, get a life.
And stop controlling EVERYTHING I do.
You're making me hate home.
You're making me hate this fucking family of mine (except my grandma and my jiejie)
You're really tempting me to leave this home
You're making my life miserable.
You're making me so damn fucking stressed up.
You're adding more burdens into my life when
I alrd have so many fucking problems.
You think everything you do for me is for the good of me,
but have you think of whether is it really good for me?
Maybe it only benefit you, yourself, but I'm telling you now,
it doesn't benefit me at all.
I don't even feel love or care by you at all.
Only my grandma loves me, and I believe so.
If someone really love or care for you,
you'll gradually come to know it and feel it.
But I don't feel a single shit from you.
Is this what you call a family?
A family filled with no love, warmth and concern
(Damn it, always when things like this happen,
I always think of you, of how I used to cry on yr shoulder and you comforting me)
Fuck la
God, help me