It still upsets me

This video is damn sad, and damn touching



I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

Somethings are meant to be given up after a period of time,
instead of prolonging the sadness

If you know you'll be unfaithful in the end, then don't start the relationship

Happy (belated :p) Birthday, Kelvin! :D

Hello pig, thanks for being there for me when I needed you.
Thanks for cheering me up and,
yr lil gestures sometimes really make me happy.
You're a wonderful friend,
and I thank God for you :)
May you be happy on this blessed day and
you're very much appreciated by me! <3

Today was Social Studies mid year paper.
Sadly to say, I think I screwed up the whole paper.
Well, at least I studied and did what I can :)
I'm gonna start studying my other subjects, soon!

Due to the humid weather, my Andersen Belgian Chocolate Chip ( :p ) ice cream is melting rapidly :(

Listening: Broken by 12 Stones :)



Time, moves slowly while you're gone
I haven't heard your voice in quite some time
But I still see your face
I cannot erase the things you've done
And all the ways you kept me hangin' on

Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road

I know, it hurts to hear the truth
Well maybe
I was never meant to be with you
And I cannot replace
The tears of disgrace
That run for you
Cause running from the truth is what you do

Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road

You were all I've ever known
And I cannot replace all these tears of disgrace
And I won't bleed for you anymore

Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road
And I won't bleed for you anymore

I've moved on
And I won't bleed for you anymore
I'm bleeding but I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
At the end of our broken road

Leaving it behind

For A Pessimist Im Pretty Optimistic - Paramore


Paramore :)

Just talk yourself up
And tear yourself down
You've hit your one wall
Now find a way around
Well what's the problem?
You've got a lot of nerve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

I'm not so naive
My sorry eyes can see
The way you fight shy
Of almost everything
Well, if you give up
You'll get what you deserve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stayI put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

You were finished long before
We had even seen the start
Why don't you stand up, be a man about it?
Fight with your bare hands about it now

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay well did you
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away

Give me a moment to restart my heart

Updated private blog

Why build me up when you know you're gonna tear me down eventually?

Mixed feelings,

Damn scared for Chinese midyear tmrw
I hope at least, I'll pass
Please pray for me!!!!!!

(And I'm grounded :( )

And you're such a bastard, really
Heartless asshole
I can't hold it any longer, dammit
Damn disappointed in you,
and I regretted the time I wasted on you to try to get you back

Grace, WAKE UP LA

(Tell me why you're so hard to forget)

Bring back my Ipod to me :(

Bloody greedy person, don't know how to return to the bus driver is it
So selfish and greedy of you >:(
The whole world is getting more and more selfish

"The part that hurts the most isn't you ignoring me, but not holding me till the end"

I'm feeling better after a long and bitter cry

Headache, cough, flu and sorethroat are killing me
Feeling unwell since two days ago :(

I just started studying too, :)

"If it's a person you have to erase, then is better not to painfully keep him in your heart"

I want to fill this frame with a new picture

Swimming was great
Shopping was great
Bought a new hoodie from Pull And Bear :)

Give me a bit more time,
I'll be okay after a few days

I give up

Friends are more important than boyfriends/crushes/whatever shit lovers

No more fucking shitty posts and emo posts anymore,
(I hope) Cos the new me is stronger than before
Cheer up, Grace :)

On a happier note, thanks for all those whose been there for me. Including you :) Piggg :D , rofl

I need to know where I'm heading.
No more idling around aimlessly like a lost soul like I used to do
&One more thing, look at your conscience.
Don't act like "Oh I'm not guilty at all"
Cos you are, and should be
Everything comes around and goes around.
There is definitely karma in this world

I finally understand.
I know what to do now,
let it go,
for the last and final time.
I won't have regrets, I hope.
And will go with what I say

Sorry, but I've tried my ultimate best.
I'm worn out, totally drained out.
I've tried so many ways, so many ways to please you
and make you happy.
But sorry, I failed.
And I'm tired.
You took a hold of my emotions,
tear me down like anything,
hurt my pride like anything,
and played with my feelings like fuck,
and also, doubt my good intentions.
I never ever thought this would happen in my whole entire life.
But, this is only the beginning of life,
here are still more obstacles to overcome
I won't let this tear me down anymore

"If it doesn't become yours even after all of that hardship,
then you have to give up on it clearly and cleanly"

Self-control

I need to learn how to control my emotions and my actions
It is tough, but I guess I'll be okay



(The feeling ain't the same anymore,
I'm giving up)